As part of my IMPACT year, we were required to do one week of UK mission. For our mission week we went to Burton On Trent. Burton Family church is a new church plant (New Frontiers). The church has about 40 Sunday regulars which after a year is incredible!!
If I am completely honest I had not heard of Burton until we got the email telling us that this is where we were going. I then forgot what is was called so when people asked all I said was “it is a place beginning with B.. I can’t actually remember the name”. I did not go into the week expectant, I felt that God wasn’t going to do anything.
I am an absolute home bird, through and through, I do not cope well-being away from home. My house is crazy, but it is my safe space, so going to a place I had never been before let alone heard of, was really hard to get my head around. Thankfully one of the girls I share a house with in Shrewsbury was also staying with the same family that I was which made it 10x easier!
I arrived in Burton. We had a prayer meeting with the church plant, to pray about the week and to pray for God to do big things in the plant. It was a long but inspiring night! The worship was indescribable. The worship leader that was due to lead could not make it so those of us in the prayer meeting just started singing, it was the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. From that prayer meeting I knew that God was going to do something.
One of the mornings we were there, we were asked to prepare and present “The Story of Noah” to a group of seven year olds in a local primary school. I initially felt so embarrassed but quickly realised that the children don’t care what we look like and every single one of the IMPACT team are in EXACTLY the same “Arc” as me. It was such a blessing.
Later on that day we had teaching on evangelism, as the next day we were spending the day on the streets of Burton. This is not my forte. Pip (a member fn the IMPACT team) and I decided that we wanted to do coffee shop outreach, we bought strangers coffee. Showing them the love of Jesus through our actions. We were greatly appreciated in one shop but chased out of another.
The last day we were there was a Sunday so we got to attend the Burton Family churches morning meeting. It was great! The room was full, the worship great and God was there! The subject of the meeting was healing! I have always been very sceptical about healing due to the fact my little brother has not been healed (he is deaf). This was a hard meeting for me to sit in as I had already prepared my heart for healing not to happen. God has a great sense of humour though, as people were getting prayed or I was asked by the speaker to pray with a lady with IBS (irritable bowel syndrome), she was suffering from intense pains in her stomach. As I started to pray for the lady, her stomach started to radiate an incredible heat! I kept moving my hand away and shaking it. The heat was still radiating. I prayed around four times, at the end of each prayer I asked her if anything had changed. When it got to the last prayer the lady had been completely healed.
God blessed me so much during my time in Burton, from being with the most precious host family to being driven to Stafford on my last day which halved my journey home. God opened my eyes to the things that he is doing in other churches. I know that I have a tendency to stay within my church bubble and forget that God is moving in big ways elsewhere, I am sure that many of you on occasion has done the same.
I encourage you to connect with a church plant, go visit them, pray for them and if you can and God leads you then bless them financially. Don’t close yourself off from the things God is doing because you are comfortable just knowing your own church.
Those of you who know me well, will know that I started this gap year working for my home church Jubilee Church Wirral. After a lot of prayer and counsel with people I trust, the decision was made that I leave. It was not as easy decision and to this day I do think back to what could have been done.
At the time all of this was going on I really did not want to know who God was. I had been feeling like that for a while before starting my work at the church. I had been asking as many questions as I could to elders of my church and elders on my theology course, trying to catch them out to disprove Gods existence. I had the opportunity to do an Alpha course with my boyfriend’s church. Week 1, I stayed behind for a good 45 mins asking as many questions as I possibly could. I left feeling exactly the same. That God was irrelevant to my life. Why would he call me to something and not seem there?
Due to leaving my internship at Jubilee Wirral, I did not know what I should do with the rest of my time. I was so disappointed in myself and what I had not achieved, people kept telling me to look at what I had already done, but let’s be real we are human therefore we are not going to look at what we have achieved, we will look at what we haven’t. I let that consume me completely.
One thing that was mentioned to me as I was leaving my internship was the fact that I should seek professional help. I battled with myself for months on this decision. My amazing mum was so encouraging and kept sending me the number of the place my GP had referred me to, but I really did not want to go through the NHS, I had a very negative experience with them so that is the last place I wanted to go to.
My dad has never really been one for therapy but that is just due to the fact he deals with things very differently to me. But he was the one that came home and told me about a none NHS cognitive behaviour therapy organisation that had opened a new building that he was working on (my dad is a landscape gardener and general all round handy man). He took me to meet the guy who was running it. I was first on their new list and had my assessment the following week. I then started my sessions a few days after that initial assessment.
I am now in week 6 of 8 in CBT, it was the best decision I had ever made.
Now I had sorted my mental health support I really started to feel that I needed God back in my life, over the weeks of Alpha my questions were being answered and I was starting to feel like I wanted God to stay. It took time and a lot of prayer and a few encounters with the Holy Spirit but I am so happy to say that my relationship with God is getting stronger every day.
I let myself become blinded by my struggle that I did not see how much God was blessing me; I have met the most incredible people on my gap year. They are the group that I have my theology lectures with down in Shrewsbury. You lot have been such an encouragement and support to me, I can’t thank you enough for your constant love and understanding.. The fact I get to travel every term to meet with them is also a huge blessing as I love to travel! I have an incredible opportunity to help a church plant in Burton. When I was in what I call my “dark place”, I could not see how much God was doing.
Kris, you have been my rock through all of this struggle and kept me grounded when I wanted to make decisions based on how I felt, you kept a firm grounding.
I wanted to say thank you to everyone at Jubilee Church Wirral who supported me through prayer and also those who supported me financially. It was such a blessing. It covered all my travel expenses as well as allowing me to treat myself to a coffee when it was needed.
I have recently made the decision to make Freedom Church Chester my home as it is where I know God wants me to be. It allows me to be with people my own age as well as having the support and counsel from those older. It also means that I get time to worship with Kris!
So, what next?
I am going to Sarajevo, Bosnia for I guess you’d call it a mission trip! I will be living in the city. I will be working (volunteering) at a refugee house. I will be out there from mid-May to mid-July.
This opportunity is beyond what I had imagined for my gap year. I can’t thank God enough for allowing me to do this.
If you want to know a bit more about what I’ll be doing then feel free to ask me about it!
My year – 2018
2018 was without a doubt a year to remember. I have always felt that 2018 has been one of the hardest years of my life so far, yet in reality it was one of the best years of my life.
Early on in the year finished my time with CAMHS.
I built wonderful friendships at college.
I applied to University, getting into Leeds Beckett to study sport and exercise science.
Long term friendships came to an end leaving me in a very vulnerable place.
I ran away to Bosnia for a week which gave me the time to focus on letting God heal my heart.
I met the most gentle and kind hearted guy.
I got to travel to Iceland over the summer.
For those of you who know me well or have already read some of my previous blogs would know that I struggle with depression and an eating disorder. January 2018 I had my last therapy session, due to turning 18. I was never honest in my therapy sessions. I was always more interested in what my therapists cats name was rather than facing how I was feeling. I hate the patronising phrase “…and how does that make you feel”. Despite not really engaging I did leave feeling a bit better.
Through all of this the staff at college and the students were nothing but loving and supportive. The amount of times I would cry was actually unreal, I am thankful yet I feel very sorry for the boys who had to put up with it! There were people who weren’t even on my course who would always look out for me. I do not know how I would have finished college without every single person who played a part in my college experience.
At school Uni was NEVER my plan, I did not thing I had the brains, college taught me I did (this is getting very cheesy). I ended up applying and getting unconditional offers for 50% of my chosen Universities. I was getting ready to move to Leeds.
With all of this going on in my life there was always someone who I clung to for security, I wish it was God but it wasn’t. When I and that person parted ways I didn’t have anything to cling onto. I took it very, very badly. It left me feeling alone and broken, even more broken than I already was. After a few weeks of wallowing and being looked after and loved by Elissa and Dan, I decided that I needed to go on holiday to help me get over what had happened. That is when I was booked on a very spontaneous flight to Bosnia. Being away helped so much. I no longer put my security in people but I chose to put it in God. I had hit the lowest point I could so the only way out was up. I had never been so close to God. I listened to what he had to say and I acted on what he wanted me to. I was given the most incredible opportunities to share at my own church as well as a few other churches on the Wirral. I really felt that I had firmly put my roots in God.
I had that love for God for a while. I went to BCDO (big church day out) and ran into an old friend that soon became the person that I want to spend every minute of every day with! (back with the cheese again). I don’t think there has been a day since then that we haven’t spoken. His love for God was so real and so genuine.
Due to this fire I had for God I decided that I did not want to go to Uni, I wanted to take a gap year and live for him. To me that meant interning at my church. After I made that decision I booked a trip to Iceland (omg if you haven’t been then you need to go!). I wanted to get away and make sure that it was the right thing for me to do. As soon as I got there I was hit with this overwhelming doubt that I still haven’t shaken. I had such big questions (it is completely fine to have questions). Anything that had to do with God I ignored. I did not want to know about it. Barriers went up around my heart.
I still wanted to intern for my church so I could fix how I felt about God. Long story short it doesn’t work like that. I ended up resenting God more. I made the decision to leave my internship. My mental health had been on the down since I made the decision to give my year to work for God.
I have been in a deep hopelessness since. I don’t know what my plan is for 2019 but I am learning that as much as I plan, at the end of the day it is not my decision.
I have the most supportive group of people around me. I know that 2019 is going to be a year to remember for different reasons.
“I need my relationship with God to be strong before I enter a relationship”
This blog may be sensitive to some people.
This is simply what I have experienced in my life and observations I have made.
Mark 12: 30 “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength”
For most of my life if not all of it I thought I understood what it meant to keep God in the centre of relationships (specifically romantic relationships), but quickly did I learn that this was not the case. About two ago I entered a relationship. At that point in my life God was my main focus! God was the one person that I was fully dependant on (apart from my mum lol). While I was getting to know the guy I ended up dating, I would be praying about it, praying with him.. that lasted until we made it official and then I lost all sight of God (not because of the person I was with, simply the relationship itself). That relationship ended after eighteen months. As soon as that relationship ended I jumped into my Bible, I did not want the same thing to happen in future relationships.
The point of this blog is just getting across that you are not the only one who has lost sight of God in your relationship (even if you are both Christians or both know who God is). It could be that you don’t make time for God anymore or because you are sexually impure in your relationship. I am not here to tell you what you should or should not be doing in a relationship and I am not here to convict you, that is for the Holy Spirit, but if you have accepted God into your life he has asked us to guard our hearts.
In my eyes the following list of things are key when it comes to keeping your individual relationship with God strong; To me it looks like praying into and about every situation or decision you come across and trusting that God is going to hear and answer those prayers. Think about it for a second, you probably tell your best friend EVERYTHING (I know I do). You tell them both good and bad, but there are things that I wouldn’t tell anyone not even my best friend. There is someone that has walked with you through every day of your life. He has seen all those bad moments, he has seen all those good moments. So why not just tell Him anyway? God loves us so much and understands what we are going through. Hebrews 4:16 “come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need”. Start with thanking God, then start praying for God’s Kingdom to come, and for his will and work to be done today. Request your needs, needs of others. Ask God for forgiveness for those daily mistakes (we all fall short, we all sin) ask Him to help you forgive others too. Ask for protection from temptation.
The second thing is meditating. Now, it is not about emptying out minds or a mystical experience at all. It is direct thinking, reflecting and concentrating. It helps to make “prayer and Bible study meaningful instead of mechanical, inspiring rather than superficial”. Go to Proverbs 4:26 “give carful thought to the paths for your feet and be steadfast in all your ways”, meditation allows you that thinking time.
The third thing is Bible Study someone who does all the talking and never listens ends up with very one-sided friendships or none at all. So why would we treat God the same? The Bible was written as a tool for us to use throughout life. You wouldn’t try to build a house without any tools, so why live life without the tool that is the Bible? I think it is important to pick you Bible up at the least once a day. There is a verse in there for every situation! From jealousness to feeling worthless. Psalms 119:105; 1 Corinthians 10:11, 2 Peter 3:15-18 and Luke 24:44-45.
The final thing being fellowship. The world is not the greatest place at the moment, there is a lot of hurt and pain. It is good to know that people are there for you. That is what the church is for (the “church” is not the building, it is the people!). We need to support and encourage each other. We can learn from each other!!
Whether you’ve been in a wonderful relationships for 3+ years of you’re in a new relationship or even praying about a relationship then take into consideration the next few points I want to share.
If you do not keep God in the centre of your relationship then he’ll start to break loose. As a Christian myself, I have found that a lot of things start with prayer, a Godly relationship is no exception to this. When you pray as a couple, it builds the roots in Christ so you depend on god rather than depending on your boyfriend/ girlfriend, avoiding unrealistic expectations of each other. You should pray about everything together! Thank and praise God for each other, ask God for freedom from temptation, go to God when you need relationship advice (as well as elders that you respect and trust) also pray for each other’s personal problems. I guarantee that your dates will be better when you have prayed together before hand.
Do not miss church to hang out, this one may be easier to avoid if you are both servers in your church or if you go to the same church. But trust me, you may be desperate for personal time, but church will benefit your relationship much more, I encourage you as a couple to go to church together (if you go to different churches then just make sure you go). Going to church builds a spiritual bond between you, it helps you to look towards God. Don’t just go to church though! Worship God while you are there and listen to the talk that is being shared. God is always looking to teach us something new to help us in our lives, this also includes our relationships!
Follow God’s word, I mean all of it. Do not ever think that you are an exception to God’s Law. The Bible has many rules for relationships to help them, protect them, and make them stronger. “Don’t have sex before marriage”- (1 Thes 4:3-5, 1 Cor 6:18), “Do not have relationships with non- Christians (2 Cor 6:14) and “Don’t have a relationship before you are ready” (SoS 2:7) guard your heart.
I am in a new relationship with a great guy, I am keeping God in the centre of this one!
Relationships may only be for a season to teach you. Learn from them but keep God in the centre.
I haven’t blogged in a very long time *gulp* BUT, now I am back to write another entry.
It is all about fear.
I am that person that is afraid of everything. Flying, boats, balloons, fireworks and bugs, especially bugs. The ones that scare me the most are the ones that can fly. The list of my fears is far too long for this blog. As well as those fears I have listed above there are some fears that I don’t like to talk about or share with anyone, these fears have meant that I do not sleep at night. They consume my whole being and do not allow me to enjoy my life as much as I should. But God changed that over the last few months…
During February half term I flew out to Bosnia to spend some time with my family. During this week there was a youth mission team there with the organisation YWAM (Youth With a Mission). There were three girls and two boys. I was invited on a day out with the group to a place called Srebrenica. Srebrenica was where 7,000 Bonsiak (Bosnian Muslims) boys and men were killed by Bosnian Serb forces in July 1995. They called it an “Ethnic cleanse”. It is about two hours outside of Sarajevo the capital of Bosnia (where I was staying). We left really early in the morning to make sure we got there in time as we had a tour booked. We had been driving for about an hour and a half before we decided to stop and grab a coffee, as we were all shattered from the early start. When we left the coffee shop/ petrol station we noticed that the GPS had changed the route and had taken off ten minutes of our journey so we followed the GPS! All was going well until we noticed that the road surface had changed to a gravel type surface and the flat road was now a mountain. We thought we were okay but as we got higher up the mountain the snow was getting thicker and the road was just now ice. There was evidence of a recent earthquake so half of the road was missing. We got stuck on a corner for a while, after we got around that corner the van starting to slide towards the edge of the mountain... In that moment I had to trust God, I had to trust that he had a plan. We managed to stop before we fell off the side of the mountain. It became too unsafe for us to drive so we started to walk, we walked for a good few miles. The hills in Bosnia are still peppered with mines that the Serbs had planted, we were no longer in the safety of the van, we were just walking. There were bear prints in the snow and wolves are known to be in that area. I had to trust that God was going to keep us safe.. thankfully he did and we all got home safe! Shout out to Katie who was honestly amazing and slayed those mountains with her epic driving skills!
As we were sliding towards the edge of the mountain all I could think was “what have I done in my life so far that has been for God? If I die now, what will I have done to leave Gods mark on Earth?” that thought was far more scary than being eaten by bears or being blown up.
At that moment my perspective changed. God has given me another chance, how am I going to use it?
I have felt a calling from God to preach but I was always too scared to stand up in church and talk. When I got back from my trip I had the opportunity to talk and church and this time I took it and I did it. I felt such a peace while I was standing up there in front of over 100 people, it was something I never thought I would do.
God used my experience in Bosnia to shape me into who he wants me to be, do what he has called me to do and show me that he is there and he will not let me fear anything. God needed me to experience that at such an extreme as my fears had reached extreme heights. Those fears that I had are now gone, they are no longer a part of my life. I am free to live the way God has called me to live.
It says in the Bible not to fear 365 times! I understand that there is a difference between reading it and actually believing it in your heart. But I encourage you to go and read a few of those verses. We have authority in Jesus’ name. Pray and meditate over these verses.
Genesis 15:1 Message Bible- After all these things, this word of God came to Abram in a vision: “Don’t be afraid, Abram. I’m your shield. Your reward will be grand!”
Deuteronomy 31:6 Message Bible- “Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you”.
Psalm 27:1 Message Bible- Light, space, zest – that’s God! So, with him on my side I’m fearless, afraid of no one and nothing.
There is no space in your heart if God is there. Know his perfect love. His love is unconditional. Surrender those fears to him. Cast them to him, do not live in fear live in love.
So I spent my morning writing this blog but then the internet crashed and I hadn't saved it. Not a great morning I must admit.
So anyway, with an eating disorder comes a whole string of things attached. Depression, anxiety and many others. The once simple tasks becomes near impossible. Getting out of bed in the morning is such a mission. Walking into a room or ordering your own drink in Starbucks just becomes too much. It can get frustrating. I used to be a really chatty outgoing person. As much as you try and brush it off. It just doesn't seem to leave.
Depression is such a difficult thing to explain. You know when you haven't eaten much and your stomach feels empty? Thats what it's like in my head, but with so much going on. Theres so much going around my head it feels like its empty. It gets so much sometimes I can't actually get up, or I'll be standing and all of a sudden it hits and I have to curl up in a ball and sleep. Its such a dark place to be. I spend most of my time on my own, either in coffee shops or in my room. It takes too much to keep conversations going with people. Even with family.
There have been so many times when I've just gotten up and refused to be depressed but it doesn't work like that. But hey, it's not going to be this dark forever, I know God has his hands on this.
I haven't really got an art to cope with my depression but what I find does help is, well my blog! Baking and of course praying. Baking is the one I use most when I feel down. I usually head down to the kitchen with my laptop, Ed Sheeran playing. My baking has improved a lot.. I used to burn most of the things I baked and even set fire to one or two cakes. Not one of my finest moments I must admit. It is so helpful when it comes to wanting to distract yourself, you're concentrating on something that isn't going on inside your head. Along side writing and baking. Praying is also a very useful thing to do!
I was sitting in college the other day, I was having a conversation with someone and for the life of me I can't remember what it was about but they said to me "I'm just going to ignore you like God does". I know for a FACT that God hears me and that he listens to me. Therefore I know that he'll do the same for you. Your prayer might not be answered in the way you expect it, in the time you expect it. But it will be answered. Sometimes we have to reach the valley (a dark place), before we can start to look up. God wants us to focus on him and his word, thats why these things happen sometimes. Now that doesn't mean that as soon as you start looking to God you're going to be fine again. We just need to remember he is there.
I know a lot of Christians who think that we need to just look to God and everything is sorted. Like I said in my last blog its okay to ask for professional help if you're a Christian!
For me its a case of remembering he's there, that when I go into a really dark head space that I'm not alone. I don't have to struggle. When the future seems uncertain, or you enter a new chapter of you life it can sometimes be overwhelming and you can start to feel the pressure on our hearts and on our minds. God wants you to take a rest, God reminds us every single day how much he cares for us. He died for us so we could live in freedom.
I hope you have an amazing week. Praying for you all
I guess when I started this blog I thought I had so much to say. When the truth is I didn't really have anything to say. In fact, my life was falling apart around me and I felt it was the only thing I could control.
It's now March, my last blog was nearly a year ago. So much has changed in the past year. I moved to Wirral Met and met an incredible guy. I developed an eating disorder and lost everyone who I thought were my friends.
I think I'll start from the beginning, so! I found my GCSE year so difficult, I cried pretty much everyday and ate like CRAZY! I had to stop training as I needed to study. After doing my exams I went on the most amazing holiday to Bosnia to stay with my auntie and my uncle. It took my mind off getting my exam results, but the restricted eating and purging had already began. I clearly felt it was the only thing I could control in my life. I told my family I wanted to be vegan. They just thought it was a lifestye change. They didn't really question it. I came home from Bosnia on the 28th of June 2016, my leavers assembly was in the 30th. Before I left for Bosnia I really wanted to be there, but once it got to the 30th it was the last place I wanted to be. This is when I know that I had isolated myself. I made it my mission to get in and get out quick. I sat down in the hall with the whole of my year group. I had been with them all for the last five years of my life! There were never any issues but all of a sudden my head told me that they were all staring at me and laughing. In all honesty not one person was looking at me, they didn't care.
After that encounter I felt so alone. I was surrounded by family. I still felt alone. From that day it just got worse, I turned my phone off for the summer, I didn't talk to anyone, just family and my boyfriend. I lost around three stone in around two months. I would just drink coffee and not allow myself to have anything. I didn't feel worthy of feeling happy or feeling full for that matter!
It got to the start of August, I had been looking forward to my annual Christian camp since the 2015 week had finished! I was determined to make it the best week ever. But, I didn't even feel there. As I was away from home. Away from my safe place I didn't eat, meaning I was napping instead of socialising. As I has isolated myself and let anxiety take over I didn't want to meet any new people. Goodness me, I even cried when my boyfriend introduced me to his youth group! They're some of the most amazing people and I cried. It was a very embarrassing moment as you can imagine!
I wasn't really interested in the talks or the worship. I was a completely different person. I kept getting so angry with myself. I would cry in anger (oh my goodness I cry a lot!), I wanted to go back to being me, but anyway. That week didn't really do anything for me. It just showed me that I was pushing the people that cared a lot for me, away. The week following Newday my boyfriend came to stay for the first time (he lives over 200 miles away!) It was a week full of laughs. For the first time in months I actually felt I was getting better! I didn't care what I ate, I was chatting to more people it was great! Until... the 25th of August 2016. Many of you will remember. RESULTS DAY!!!!!! I had worked soooooo hard leading up to my exams.
I opened the envelope. It went black around me. All I could see was this bit of paper. I then felt the tears. I ran so fast out of that hall. Long story short, I stopped eating completely and when I did eat I would purge or calorie count like crazy. I hardly left the house. I didn't even have the energy to get out of bed. Thats when my family realised something was wrong. depression, anxiety and anorexic. They were my labels. Going off on a tangent again! I ended up at Wirral Met doing sports and exercise science. I hated every second of the first few months. I wanted to leave. They moved me into a different group and things started to settle.
But, I was still trapped in my head, do you know what its like to wake up and be saddened that you actually woke up? You can't run away from your own head. The isolation carried on. I stopped going to church and didn't talk to anyone in college. The weight was still dropping. I was told that my kidneys and liver were close to failing (they're getting better now!)
I realised that I couldn't do it anymore. I turned back to God, he is a healing God. But, he can't just make everything better. I heard him tell me to seek not just his help, but help from an eating disorder clinic, from counselling. I have started to go back to church, I've started to talk to people in college. Sometimes we need a little more than God, its not going to be a quick fix at all it's going to be a gruelling and long journey!! But, it's totally going to be worth it. I still have really awful days. For example today, I was in a really bad place I sat on my own in a coffee shop. I felt like my world was caving in again. I stopped, I prayed. I threw some rend collective on and I was good again! We all go through storms, but God said "It is finished" be patient and keep seeking after Gods love and not the love of the world. Surround yourself with positive Godly people! I would have totally given up if it wasn't for Sam (Said boyfriend) reminding me of Gods love.
It's okay to ask for help.. Don't let the Christian faith stop you from seeking advice from Mental health professionals. God has them on Earth for a reason!
Please don't hesitate to email me. I would love to pray for you, or just chat!
2 Corinthians 10:5
There are so many fabulous things about social media. You can talk to friends, family. My family is spread all over the world at the moment so I use it to catch up with them all. You can see what's going on in the world. You can send GIFS. You can post all the selfies you want. You can connect with new people (as long as it's safe). You can share with other people what's going on in your own life. It can help promote businesses.
But there is so much wrong with social media and using our phones. You spend all your time looking down. Looking down to see if anyone has text you or liked your picture or if you've still got a streak on snapchat. You can't keep a face to face conversation going. When you do keep the conversation you still end up looking down when you phone buzzes or not. If the conversation has finished or not.
You don't realise how beautiful the world is around you. You don't see the flowers, or the old lady smiling at you. You also start to compare yourself to everyone you see and people living these "perfect" lives that you envy. "Perfect" bodies. Relationships, you see all your friends with people and you feel you need to get into a relationship to "fit in".
I'm very sure every single one of you girls has heard this before. But you're perfect the way you are! You don't need to change the way you dress. Or your hair colour. You just need to take a step back, breathe and revalue what you're using social media for. Keeping in touch with family and friends or trying to change who you are. I did a social media detox for a month and wow it completely changed my view on life and how I saw myself. I saw the flowers and the beauty in the world around us, and I saw the old lady smile at me. I'm now happy with who I am as a person.
God made you who you are for a reason. He made you look the way you are for a reason.
Psalm 139:14New International Version (NIV)14 "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well."
You're beautiful. As is the world around you.
I hope you have an amazing week I'm praying for you all.
Much love, Kezia xx
So, from the title I'm guessing you know that this is my 1st ever blog!
I'll start by telling you a bit about myself and why I've decided to blog.
I'm a young person living in the kingdom, I was brought up in a Christian home. Always went to church but my dad is high up in the Christian circle around where we live so I am always being defined as his daughter and not ME. I'm writing this blog to encourage young people in their faith and walking with God, but to also to find my identity in God.
It's going to be aimed at girls more than it is guys. I'll be doing weekly blogs on things that have happened throughout the week or things that God has really put on my heart.
I'll be exploring;
What it means to be a women of faith in todays society.
Obviously this blog isn't going to be that long but from next I'll be writing about Social media :) I'm excited to get to know you guys! As the months go on I'll tell you more about my story and what God's done in my life and what he's still doing.